May and June are always the hardest months of the year for me. They symbolize loss, for me anyway. I lost my grandfather on May 19th and it will be 5 years in a little over a week and I lost my mother on June 11th and it will be 10 years in exactly one month from tomorrow. During this time I am always bombarded with emotions that can be extremely difficult to deal with. But I do.... Why? Because the last thing they would have ever wanted is for me to give in and ultimately, give up.
Instead I try my best to use the my sadness and sorrow as fuel. There is nothing that drives me more then doing everything in my power to make who were (and still are) the most important people in my life proud. I've made a lot of promises that I intend on keeping. I set to many goals for myself that I intend on achieving.
As I grieve, I put myself in a place where I can feel them. It is as close as ill ever come to finding peace. Over the years, I've learned that the peace you find is only temporary. Nothing will ever fill in the blank that has become your loss. Regardless, peace is peace. Cherish the moments you have the ones you love.
Immortality isn't reality.
Beautifully written. It will always be a challenging time for us , I do not think hat will EVER go away but I do know that they would never want us to stop pushing and living in the happiest way we could possibly live..as if they were still here with us. I know they are all around us even though we cannot see or touch them..<3 There are so many blessings that have come my way that I know they are a part of , and so many things I never thought I would get through that I got through and came out of stronger then ever. You can say the same I'm sure.
Posted by: Daniele Suzy | 05/12/2013 at 02:16 PM